i will not settle for less...

the one inside me-

I dream of him, with my eyes open and closed.       

He’s of the darkness, and walks with in the shadows.

There’s wildness about him, radiating with the energy of it.

A lone wolf; unbroken and fierce, yet alone and misunderstood

His eyes are cold and masked; a mischievousness that promises both pleasure and pain

He towers above others; moves with cunning poise

He is fallen; Beautiful in his mistake

Like all creatures his will is free;

His choice defines him; nobility of the knight

Set at great round slab, crusading brethren

Bloodlust warrior, tortured soul

He is the cold shot of fear, and the warmth embrace of safety

Ageless wisdom and willful youth

Damned by his linage, minority for his conscious

He is not lost

It is him

He is mine, my only true home…

…In the make believe lands of youth, and the desolate depths of bad decisions

As a lost prince and a hope within

I’ve carried him with me; I’ve seen him within all paths

No matter the light his face is always hidden

A blur to the sight, but I feel his pull

I call to him; ache with the need of him

Take me away; show me that there’s something more

Can he hear me, does he feel me?

Is he even real…?

I look to the stars, infinite possibility

But I dare not hope; I am earth, he is air

Written By:  Terri Ellenburg
Aoril 21 2011

GIVING UP ON DREAMS - WRINKLES THE SOUL

my favorite words ...

fallen
broken
destiny
hope
mistake
desire
linger
scars
dark
secret
heat
crisp
hollow
breath
shudder
pull
calling
chaos
shadow
beginning
end
want
night
stars

It is said some lives are LINKED ACROSS TIME - they are CONNECTED by an ancient CALLING - a CALLING that echos through the AGES...
the prince of persia

Men are natural warriors, but a woman in battle - is truly bloodthirsty
-old scottish saying

;)

a vampire knight - ;)

My Kindle Highlights

quotes

"if the butterfly wings its way to the sweet light that attracts it, it’s only because it doesn’t know that the fire can consume it"


"he most beautiful experience we can have is the mysterious. It is the fundamental emotion that stands at the cradle of true art and true science. Whoever does not know it and can no longer wonder, no longer marvel, is as good as dead, and his eyes are dimmed."


"t is a blessing as well as a burden to love so much that you can hurt so badly when love is gone.”

"don't focus on details - magic's in the heart, not the mind - its not about words, or following a procedure - you have to FEEL it."

Jericho Barrons *breathless*

the perfect bad boy

 

the fever series. read it. 

My Kindle Highlights

quotes

"One day you do meet a man who kisses you and you can’t breathe around it and you realize you don’t need air. Oxygen is trivial. Desire makes life happen. Makes it matter. Makes everything worth it. Desire is life. Hunger to see the next sunrise or sunset, to touch the one you love, to try again. "
-jericho barrons, the fever series



"And I’m sorry your pretty little world got all screwed up, but everybody’s does, and you go on. It’s how you go on that defines you"

“Some things are sacred. Until you act like they’re not. Then you lose them.”

-jericho barrons, the fever series

“Most people are good and occasionally do something they know is bad. Some people are bad and struggle every day to keep it under control. Others are corrupt to the core and don’t give a damn, as long as they don’t get caught. But evil is a completely different creature, Mac. Evil is bad that believes it’s good.”

"Occam’s razor: The simplest explanation that accommodates all variables is most likely the truth. "

"Each morning we wake up, we get to choose between hope and fear and apply one of those emotions to everything we do. "

“one must break with one’s past to embrace one’s future. It is never an easy thing to do. It is one of the distinguishing characteristics between survivors and victims. Letting go of what was, to survive what is.”

Womankind’s greatest mistakes: falling in love with a man’s potential. We so rarely share the same view of it, and even more rarely care to achieve it.


“Don’t tell me you didn’t mean to do it, Mac. Omission or commission—the end result is the same.”


Distinguish yourself, my mom had told Alina and me, in an age where girls often make themselves too available to boys, by making him work a little for your attention. He’ll think he’s won a prize when he gets it, and he’ll work that much harder to keep it. Boys turn into men and men put a premium on what’s hardest to get.

It’s our actions that define us. What we choose. What we resist. What we’re willing to die for.

“One day you may kiss a man you can’t breathe without, and find breath is of little consequence.” -jericho barrons, the fever series

“Words can be twisted into any shape. Promises can be made to lull the heart and seduce the soul. In the final analysis words mean nothing. They are labels we give things in an effort to wrap our puny little brains around their underlying natures, when ninety-nine percent of the time the totality of the reality is an entirely different beast. The wisest man is the silent one. Examine his actions. Judge him by them. He thinks you have the heart of a warrior. He believes in you. Believe in him.”

The most confused we ever get is when we’re trying to convince our heads of something our heart knows is a lie.

You can’t change an unpleasant reality if you won’t acknowledge it, Mac. You can only control what you’re willing to face. Truth hurts. But lies can kill.

Don’t confuse intensity of emotion with quality of emotion

the heart had reasons of which reason knew nothing, the only quote of Pascal’s I remembered.

Life didn’t explode in the sunshine and pretty places. Life took the strongest root with a little bit of rain and a whole lot of shit for fertilizer.

Life’s an ocean, full of waves. All are dangerous. All can drown you. Under the right circumstances, even the gentlest swell can turn tidal. Hopping waves is for the weekend warrior. Choose one, ride it out. It increases your odds of survival.”

;)

I WANT TO BE WITH THOSE WHO KNOW SECRET THINGS - OR ELSE ALONE"
-rilke

Oh - Mr. Darcy!

My Kindle Highlights

quotes

"I cannot fix on the hour, or the spot, or the look, or the words, which laid the foundation. It is too long ago.  I was in the middle before i knew that I had begun"

-Mr. Darcy <3

from the pride and prejudice

(speaking of when he fell in love with Elizabeth)

"your sister is crossed in love, i find.  i congratulate her.  next to being married, a girl likes to be crossed a little in love now and then. it is something to think of, and it gives her a sort distinction among her companions"
-Mr. Bennett from The Pride and Prejudice

HA ;)

"when a woman is openly bad, she is then at her best"
-a latin proverb

"when women go wrong - men go right after them"
 -mae west

alis volat prospris - she flies with her own wings

"love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies" .
aristotle

"HOLD FAST TO DREAMS, FOR IF DREAMS DIE, LIFE IS A BROKEN WINGED BIRD THAT CANNOT FLY"
LANGSTON HUGHES

"believe nothing, no matter where you read it, or who said it, no matter if I have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense"

buddha

i absolutly love this...

"BE HAPPY IN THE MOMENT, THAT'S ENOUGH.  EACH MOMENT IS ALL WE NEED, NOT MORE."
Mother Teresa

"LIFE is either a DARING ADVENTURE or NOTHING"
hellen keller

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what i want in a guy...

(from grease 2)

:)

if you really want to know
what i want in a guy
well im lookin' for a dream on a mean machine
WITH HELL IN HIS EYES
i want a devil in skin tight leather
AND HE'S GONNA BE WILD AS THE WIND
and one fine night
ill be holdin' on tight

to a cooool rider, a coooool rider
if he's cool enough
HE CAN BURN ME THROUGH AND THROUGH
whhoa ohhhh
IF IT TAKES FOREVER
THEN I'LL WAIT FOREVER, NO ORDINARY BOY
NO ORDINARY BOY IS GONNA DO
i want a rider that's cool

thats the way its gonna be
and thats the way that i feel
I WANT A WHOLE LOT MORE THAN THE BOY NEXT DOOR
I WANT HELL ON WHEELS
just give me a fine motorcylcle
with a man growin out of the seat
and move aside cause im gonn ride

(chorus)

i don't want no ordinary guys
comin' on strong to me
they don't know what im lookin for
THEY DONT KNOW WHAT I NEED
they're gonna know when he gets here
cause the crowd will be shakin'
ILL DO ANYTHING TO LET HIM KNOW
THAT IM HIS, HIS FOR THE TAKIN

Cause the crowd will be shakin'.
I'll do anything to let him know,
That I'm his, his for the takin'.

etc...etc...(you get the idea...)

if you see me getting smaller
i'm leaving, don't be grieving just got to get away from here

if you see me getting smaller
don't worry, i'm in no hurryi have the right to dissapear

-waylon jennings

...have you ever noticed that-- the most ferocious women, are often the most breakable? we are fearsome creatures-deadly even to most and then we break.  we shatter and crumble into thousands of pieces...

maybe its because we are missing something, we are not whole...incomplete...

maybe we are all LITERALLY two halves of one whole; women are born falling apart; men born to hold us together.