so...back a couple months ago we set the kids down and tell them that Josh and Sherina are going to have a baby. Cody is instantly perplexed over this idea. flabbergasted even. finally he says, "Josh can't be a dad." when i ask why, he replies "because...because he's...Josh. Josh's aren't dads." Laughing i say, "I am sure he is not the first Josh to ever be a dad before."
he looks at me still bewildered and says, "but...he's our Josh." ...with that i cannot argue. i get it now. he's our Josh...and now we have to share.
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| Josh probably about the age Cody is now. lol |
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| Josh (15) and Cody (less than 1) |
...growing up, when often fronted with the question on what exactly Josh was to me, i hated using the word cousin. it always seemed to warrant the 'oh, is that all' kind of response; i struggled all through childhood with the perfect explanation of what we were.
now here i sit, ____ years later (LOL), again trying to come up with words to truly put the two of us in perspective, so that i could then take that and open into the introduction of Josh and Sherina's peanut.
but ultimately, the truth is, some things just can't be explained. there are bonds in this world that are so precious, words will never be able to do justice to them. therefore, i refuse to keep trying.
he is my cousin. a total goober, but one that i would kill over. :)
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| us. probably around 7 and 5? lol |
now to the point, this is the necklace i made my Sherina for her baby shower...another of my fav MIXED-MEDIA MOON NECKLACES...hand stamped with the phrase "a love bigger than the moon," w/ an additional disc tag stamped with "Josh Jr.'s" name, Caden.
...and...this is lil bit herself showing off what she calls a tummy. pfft. ;)
I always used to think that no one would ever deserve him, now i often find myself wondering how he got her. ;)
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| now... |
i truly do not have one single memory of my childhood without him in it. not one. every single threading of the foundation of who i am he was there.
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